Losing Hope

I'm slowly losing hope of ever finding a boyfriend before I turn 31.

People just seem to be more interested in having fun instead of being friends and getting to know you well first.

It's Time

Hoping that marriage equality arrives in Australia soon. I would love to move there if not New Zealand.

Unfavourited

I've unfavourited the guy I like on grindr, plus a bunch of other guys.

After a few weeks, I've still not found the courage to tell him I like him and want to know him better. It's not surprising, though; it took me 2 years of stalking one guy I liked before I mustered the courage to tell him I liked him, only to be rejected.

But on the other hand, I'm a changed guy. Rejection will probably not affect me much as running now takes my mind off a lot of depressing things. So if I get rejected, it's just means an extra run on my marathon training schedule and everything will be back as normal.

So if I see him again on grindr, I've promised myself that I'll message him.

Mustering Courage

Prepared the following message to send to the guy I'm attracted to on Grindr.

howdy. i kind of like your pic and would like to know you better.

grindr does not have much of a profile but if you like what you see of mine and are interested in knowing each other, do chat me up.

anyway, thanks for reading. cheers.

Now.... I need to muster the courage to actually send it.

Hmmm

Played around with Grindr ever since I got my Android-powered Nexus S.

Seeing lots of hot guys around made me realise that Malay guys are hot too.

For too long I thought only Caucasian guys were hot.

Maybe my time for a boyfriend will come soon. 

Trolling

Been trolling Grindr and OkCupid. Still no luck. Fuck my life.

I think I aim too high.

At Crossroads

I applied for a job at two different companies some time back; one granted me an interview and it looks like I didn't get the job, but at least they gave me constructive feedback. The other has called me for two interviews but have not gotten back to me on the outcome.

In short, I think I didn't make it at all.

I've been thinking of submitting for other job openings, but I think I have to tackle the situation differently based on the feedback I have received from one of the interviews.

My skillsets - that is my major downfall. I basically only have LAMP experience, which apparently is useless. Looks like I may need to start learning stuff like Ruby on Rails and Java servlets and other Java-based tech and probably build up a personal portfolio.

My love of running - apparently it's weird for me to prioritise running in my life. I don't know what it does for others, but running (and cycling) makes me happy and makes me want to perform and achieve great things in life. And it keeps me healthy and fit and means I take less medical leave, if at all. And it's weird to bring up the company's ideal location due to closeness to various fitness venues.

The other thing was that I stupidly wanted to know if they had an fortnightly pay cycle instead of monthly.

Anyway, there are basically a few ways I'm thinking of tackling the situation.

It has been suggested that I take up freelancing, but that probably won't solve my lack of relevant skills for I 'only' know LAMP. A slightly differently route is to be a sub-contractor to any personal contacts who are doing freelance projects.

Another route I'm thinking of is to start a personal project portfolio, but that means I won't be making money and I need money to have servers, etc. So I'll probably will have to do some non-IT related work to earn money. But doing that probably means I won't have much time to work on my IT portfolio.

The third route is to leave IT permanently and move on to teaching, which was something I wanted to do two years ago, but was advised against.

I'm kinda lost now, but I'm still waiting upon news from the other company before I decide what to do next.

The positive news is that I received a message from a guy who liked my OkCupid profile and I found his profile pretty likeable too. But I'm a 'weird' person, so I'm not expecting much from this encounter as yet.